Thursday, April 30, 2009

A new episode of Shane takes on too much in her life.

Banging my head against the wall. Should have a paper done by 3 p.m. tomorrow. Ah!! So not going to happen. I really wonder whether it is possible to be a good bike racer and a good student at the same time [this season/semester tells me no]. It's definitely impossible to do those two and be a good editor. I think my lesson this semester is that taking on so much just sets me up for disappointment across the board.

My biggest problem is that I don't know what I like yet, so I just continue to do all the things that I think I like. But then I just continue to produce mediocrity. What to do? I mean, obviously, picking would be a good start, but now's not quite the time to quit. Sometimes I just wish I could prove that I was good at something.

[Insert lecture about how stereotypically Columbia I am here] Maybe instead of complaining I should get on my bike and start proving that I am better than mediocre.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Tweet my style.

Maureen Dowd wrote her column about Twitter this morning. It seems that everyone and their mother is talking about Twitter these days. Well, not my mother, but I always knew that my mother was cooler than most people's.

The question of Twitter is so trivial, that it in itself says something about my generation. It takes effort for me to read more than 140 characters at a time anymore. I can discuss how terrible Twitter is as much as I want, and that still won't stop be from using it. Can't stop, won't stop. What else would I possibly do at midnight walking home from the Spec office? Or on the way to class? That extra 3 blocks that living in Claremont adds to my commute time enough for me to be bored and need to share bits of nonsense.

The truth is, Twitter works because people are nosy. I love it because I get little bits and pieces of other people's lives. I get to see what weird classes they are taking. Lance Armstrong posts pictures of his training rides. I can feel like I am actually friends with people that I barely speak to. It breaks down the barriers of social interaction (much like this blog??). And yet it is not real. Reading what people post on their Twitter makes me no closer to them than I was before. The people (okay, person), that I interact with on it I also interact with by phone, by text message, via Facebook.

It's just another addiction that prevents me from doing work. But at the same time, I'll keep doing it. Because I gotta keep up with the Jones'.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

An even keel?

Sickness. Awful. Saturday and Sunday I went to bed at 10 pm. Today I fell asleep after riding, about 45 minutes before my 6 pm class. Luckily, the power nap is good to me. I am feeling better.

Last night there was a complete downpour--but on the bright side, the downpour occured on a Monday, the one day that I don't care because I have no need to be on my bike. I am making some progress on my EU essay, and finally picked a topic for my Mass Media essay. Media, Internet, and the Law. Do I perhaps have a very successful lawyer friend who happens to be an expert on this subject? Yes, yes, I do. Score for me.

Also, I am at Spec for the second night in a row. Ew. BUT--that means that I don't have to be back here tomorrow! Which means...that I get out of class at 2:30 and have naught to do but be free! Well, actually, I have to ride for 2 hours then research, research, write, write, write. But the thought of being free does have a nice ring to it. I could even go do research somewhere cool and far away and not have to be back for an evening of being tied to class/Spec. I am too excited about this to actually be coherent.

I am also in the process of weaning myself off artificial sweeteners. No soda, no gum (no gum!). I decided that perhaps the reason I have so many mood swings is because of the chemicals in all of the artificial sweeteners that I consume. Plus, less soda/gum means that I can only satisfy my oral fixation (Freud alert!) with more water. Hydration = awesome.

The Tally:
Life: 4
Me: 4 (5 if you count 1 day of no Splenda, but I am withholding judgement for a week or two. It takes 21 times to kick a habit.)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Exams are a-coming!

I have decided (remembered) that blogging keeps me sane. Somehow, I always forget that when things get busy, then I go way too long without writing, then, as I am about to pull my hair out, I find my keyboard and the cosmoshane url again. In order to keep myself writing, I am going to attempt to keep score of how much life is kicking my butt from now until May 13, the day of my last exam.

Until then, I have:
  • 3 research papers (for a total of 30-36 pages)
  • 1 French essay (1.5 pages)
  • 1 exam (hard)
  • 1 quiz (not so hard)
  • 5 finals (ugh.)
  • 7 (maybe 8) bike races over 3 weekends (yay! And hard.)
  • negative money (but who has time to spend money when doing all the things above?)
Currently, I have 4/10 pages written for the 1/3 papers that are due at the end of the semester. Perhaps this is a paltry amount considering I have been working on one all weekend, but the important part is that I've started. I know what I am writing about. I have several sources. The noose has been loosened just enough that I know I am still alive. AND, I've worked the term "principal-agent problem" into my paper. Score.

The verdict--
Shane: 1
Life: 0

Friday, April 17, 2009

The way Friday should be

When I woke up this morning, it was sunny outside and both the bathroom and the coffee maker were free. I knew it was going to be a good day.

Sometime between then and now, I found time to take my EU politics research outside to the steps to bask in the sun, I watched some Gilmore Girls, did some research on Iceland, made cold-brewed ice coffee, listened to my boss's stories about clerking with TM (Judge Marshall of the US Supreme Court, that is), and went to Whole Foods AND Tasti. Tasti even had good flavors today!

I also took the time to add some new gadgets to my blog: a poll which I will sporadically change to some question even more frivolous than the last, and the weather here in New York, so that those people that worry about those things can check up on how humid or freezing it is here.

In other news, check this out:

That's me there on the left demonstrating a beautiful scissor kick on a lovely day in New Haven last weekend. For a full rundown of what happened, check out the Columbia Cycling team blog.

If I wasn't in the middle of writing three different research papers (yes, at 9:40 at night on a Friday. I have no life beyond school and cycling, officially), I would take more time to elaborate on my new job and life in general.