Banging my head against the wall. Should have a paper done by 3 p.m. tomorrow. Ah!! So not going to happen. I really wonder whether it is possible to be a good bike racer and a good student at the same time [this season/semester tells me no]. It's definitely impossible to do those two and be a good editor. I think my lesson this semester is that taking on so much just sets me up for disappointment across the board.
My biggest problem is that I don't know what I like yet, so I just continue to do all the things that I think I like. But then I just continue to produce mediocrity. What to do? I mean, obviously, picking would be a good start, but now's not quite the time to quit. Sometimes I just wish I could prove that I was good at something.
[Insert lecture about how stereotypically Columbia I am here] Maybe instead of complaining I should get on my bike and start proving that I am better than mediocre.